Itz a beautiful nite. Alone.
Itz a monday. Knock off early n had a drink or two wif boss at five5. After which i was kinda floaty n find myself walking frm hitachi tower to god knows where. Itz nice to actually walk aimlessly sometimes. Nt knowing where u wanna be. Nt knowing wad u wanna do.
It was evening time. The view of marina bay side looks gorgeous. I took fotos of a few views i find beautiful. I crossed a bridge n find myself walking towards clarke quay again. Took fotos along the way. Like a tourist. Ahahahaa.
Felt floaty n nice. The heat didnt bother me much anymore. Though i m perspiring. Sat opp clarke quay, somewhere at Central, suddenly find myself thinking alot. Reminising… thinking abt the future, abt the past. Abt him. Abt us. Suddenly feeling kinda emo sitting alone. Dun get me wrong. I like it liddat sometimes. To not talk or entertain. Juz being alone. I like it. Juz letting my tots run wild. Itz nice, sometimes.
Sometimes i feel bad. Guilty. Tat i m kinda let myself go heartless. Feeling-less. Tat i allow myself to do wad i wan, wad i like, how i like. N end of the day, when i come to feel it, i felt bad. Sigh~~ knowing tat it hurts, it aint going anywhere, yet i cling onto it, like a sinkin ship, i clinged onto it. Even though i know. I know! Sigh~~ i dunno wad to do anymore.
No matter how motivated i felt, how positive, i m always afraid one day it ll burn out. Juz like always. It feels different, but how different? How long will it last?
I hope i have lsd or pot wif me nw. Perhaps it ll make the world looks prettier…
Dragging… i juz wanna slp…
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